Features | Experience of the Divinity of Bhagavan by Devotees | Group III | Mr. James Sinclair (JS)

Mr. James Sinclair
Connecticut, USA.

Mr. James Sinclair, a businessman in the US and a longstanding devotee of Bhagavan, narrates his experience of the Divinity of Bhagavan to the Radio Sai Global Harmony, Prasanthi Nilayam. This experience of Mr. James Sinclair is extracted from the transcript of his interview to the Radio Sai Global Harmony in October 2004.

'As a young man I used to pray on my rosary beads. I felt very cheated. How in the world could I be so cheated that Christ lived 2000 years ago and here I am feeling lost and praying on my rosary beads? I had this feeling 'I don't know where You are, I don't know who You are, but I know You are… and I can't find You - so You better find me.' My prayers were answered.

I had many experiences; the most dramatic was actually seeing Swami in my home in Connecticut. After having seen Swami a second time in my meditation room - and this time Swami allowed me to touch Him, He was as real as you are sitting across the table - I was now on a mission to find who He was, not even knowing His name.

My prayers were in the 50s and seeing Him came 30 years later.

He made a motion for me to touch His Feet. Then I began to try and find out who this individual was. I went to a spiritual bookstore and asked the attendant by describing what this person looked like. He said, 'one moment' and returned with a book 'The Holy Man and the Psychiatrist' by Samuel Sandweiss, with a bag of Vibhuthi, and told me that he (Samuel Sandweiss) is a devotee of Sri Sathya Sai Baba.

Eventually I found my way to India in 1985 - and that was the beginning. Because what I have learned here is not intellectual - what I have learned here is quietude. What I have learned is from the glances in His eyes, from simply breathing the same air, from being in proximity and finding out that His life is in fact is His Message. Recognizing that there is nothing to do except cease stopping something wonderful from happening. Knowing without a doubt that the business of life and the business of business and the business of family and the business of time are all the same.

When He looks into your eyes, this process of learning begins. When He touches you physically, when He speaks to you, when He takes a letter from you, when He walks close to you, something begins to happen.

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The faith 'in' Swami is the belief that Swami will do something for us. The faith 'of' Swami is recognition that 'I am divine'.

-- Mr. James Sinclair.

(Extracted from the interview of Mr. James Sinclair to Radio Sai Global Harmony in October 2004.)